Love

I love Gary Ward. I've loved Gary Ward since 1991. He's English. Lives in England. Married, although unhappily. Wasn't married when we fell in love with eachother, life goes on. Children, yes two. He loves me too. He has always loved me but is stuck in England being a successful lawyer in a loveless marriage. I love him. Is the reason I can't have lasting relationships? Is he the reason I subconsciously intentionlly devote myself to relationships doomed to fail? Don't know. I do know that I love being in love with the unattainable.