The Breakup


the man i wrote about that I love so much....doesn't want to be with me anymore. I'm hearbroken. Detstroyed. Devastated.

Out of nowhere...no warning.

He promised me when he moved to LA nothing would change because he loves me...that was a mere 1.5 months ago.

Says he loves me and the breakup is in my best interest...that I deserve someone who can give me the things I need, the time to devote to a real relationship....WHAT? Thanks but don't tell me what I need. I want you. It was working fine for me. It's you, not me.

Friday night: I'll come over after work, we can go out to dinner, I love you.
Saturday: I've been thinking about this for awhile, the relationship isn't working.

omg. I wanted to die. I haven't felt this much pain in almost a decade.

It still hurts. I know it will get better. but I miss him and I still love him.....I just want it all to go away now.....